During the 7th grade I had to moved schools, so it was already hard for me to find friends since everyone has friend groups and I am very shy to meet new people. At my bus stop there was this boy, I’ll call him S, he was in 8th grade and was actually really nice to me, we shortly became friends since we had the same interests. Mouths later and it turns out he likes me in a romantic way, I didn’t realize at the time. Stupid enough I told him I liked him too. After school we would talk on discord every night. Then he got weird, he would say sexual things to me and soon enough he sexually assaulted me at a sleepover and in school. I didn’t tell anyone because I was too scared. To this day my own parents don’t even know. 2 mouths after I stoped talking to S and he threatened to rape me and start to stalk me. He did stalk me for a bit but he got over it I guess. Why do I miss the comfort of him though he didn’t such bad things to me? Why do I miss him