This is my first time trying to vent online. I just have felt so ugly for like half a year at this point and my friends are all so beautiful. They all tell me I am too but I know it’s bias that makes them say that. I’m just not an attractive person, neither for looks or personality. My best friend will glaze me with compliments if I ever send a photo but I just can’t believe what she says. To me, it feels like she’s pitying me even though I know she hates being pitied herself. It’s not like I want to kms but I still just want to almost hide everything about me and wear uncomfortable clothes to hide the features I hate like unlevel eyes and hips, no chest, acne scars, etc. I know I sound stupid when I complain about it and I feel bad for burdening my friends with self deprecating jokes. I just don’t know what else to do and I get too scared to look into surgeries for my future. I just wish I could’ve grown into the pretty girl everyone thought I’d be.