I want to kms by the end of this month. I don't care anymore. I just want to end this. I've been pressured on school for the past 3 months, and I can't just not do it otherwise I might get removed from said school, and I don't have any another alternative schools, and we can't afford homeschooling or tutoring. I have been abused by my father in my younger years, before preschool, around 3 ~ 4 yrs old, my grandmother died when I was 6 years old, and my extended family makes me feel like a burden, and my mother just demotivates me from non-school things and treats me like a machine and doesn't accept failure. My left ear is in almost constant pain. It hurts. I do not want to be in this body anymore. If reincarnation was real, I would probably already be in another person's body. They're religious and won't accept I'm bisexual. I just want ONE person to talk to, to convince me not to kill myself. They're lucky I haven't done SH or kms. Thanks for reading - JKCV