(G: Female {Bc it help make sense} )So I'm in this relationship, and I'm going to make clear that I'm not the type of person to share my lover. But I'm okay with others doing it. And lately the love of my life somewhat pressured me into doing a polygamy relationship with him loving me and my best friend. We're on trying mode rn to see if I like it (Which rn I don't). And I really just want it to be me and him and not her. Bc I hate the fact of sharing. I've had to much drama with other relationships in the past but now it just reopening the wound again. And in the beginning it caused me so much emotional stress to the point I was having panic attacks, I didn't want to stress either of them but right now. I just want to tell them that I don't like the fact of this whole polygamy relationship, I never have but I feel deep down that my bf. My gut is hating this whole thing. But my heart loves him. Am I a crappy gf for saying I don't want to do it?