I feel so lost, I don't know if I made the right career choice, and my friendships are all kind of falling apart. Slowly but surely everyone is growing more distant, and I feel like I no longer have a person to talk to or be emotionally intimate with. There's this lack of purpose inside me. I don't feel passionate anymore, or not like I used to. I'm probably some kind of depressed, but I won't bother going to therapy. I don't see myself in 5 years, the prospect of having a job terrifies me. I'm too tired now, imagine working full time. I'm certain I won't be enough. Not enthusiastic enough, not energetic enough, not productive enough. Maybe that is why peiple naturally drift away from my life. Is it something I do? something I say? or lack thereof? I don't know. I can't express myself well, I always mask shit and then have to come to websites like these to try and say what's on my mind. Everything is so pent up. I'm so tired. I'm just going through the motions at this point.