one of the proposed hangouts was to go watch a concert together that she'd said the previous year that she wanted to go see. which is why i suggested it, when tickets went on sale. but when i suggested it, she immediately rejected it, said it was a waste of time, made it sound like a stupid idea, like why would i think she'd want to go? it was kind of crushing. and then she basically ghosted me. like the friendship that i thought we had never actually existed for her. i feel like i always put in so much effort to try to be a good listener, an understanding friend. i put in effort to show i care. but it never seems like i get anything in return from anyone. i don't know why i'm not good enough for anyone, why no one wants to actually be my friend. what am i missing that other people have? how do other people manage to make and keep friends?