no one cares enough to reach out and ask him how i'm doing, or even what's up. it's always me that has to make the effort. i'm the one that asks what's going on in their lives, how they're doing. i'm the one that tries to keep in touch and find out what they're up to, that asks about their days and how things are going for them. no one ever asks me that. no one really remembers me at all or thinks of me much, if at all. ck was like that with her email asking if i wanted to meet up when she came to town. except that invite came after an explanation that she'd come by last year (i didn't get an email last year) and met up with old friends, so she thought she'd do the same this year except one of the friends she was planning on meeting up with turned out to be unable to make it which was why she was reaching out to me. like, really? you really need to say all that, make it extra clear that i'm the afterthought of an afterthought? that i'm so far down the list, i'm basically a last resort?