i just feel like crying because i have no income right now, i'm living off of my savings, and yet my expenses are increasing (and sooner than expected) because he's increasing them (and sooner than he said he would!) but i can't tell him any of that because he already thinks i'm leeching off him, that he's being generous enough with me (which he is, i'll admit). but still, he makes these promises so i expect things and budget for it, and then it doesn't happen the way or on the timeline i budget for because he's convinced he didn't promise what he did. i feel like there's no one i can talk to about any of this because no one knows the truth about the last 30 years of my life -- how i did in school, what i did in school, what jobs i have and haven't had, what my finances are like, what i'm doing now with myself, how much of a mess i am and my life is, how unhappy and at times depressed i am, how i'm always lonely and feel like i have no friends. because i don't.