i was diagnosed with mild autism but my mom refuses to acknowledge it and wouldn't take me to any of my scheduled appointments with my psychiatrist. she hates anything to do with the word autistic about me, yet when i act differently, she calls me 'gila' (crazy) and 'tidak sihat' (not mentally well) which really hurt me. a lot. i'm legible for the disability card in malaysia, yet my mom doesn't allow me to make one because apparently 'it'll ruin my future' and, 'no one will hire me'. i struggle a lot in social settings, no one cares enough to support me and thinks it's not a big of a deal because im already 16, a teenager expected to be mature and suck it up. but in reality, it feels like i'm drowning in my own flaws of not being able to keep up with the normal neurotypical standards today. i genuinely don't know how much longer i can hold on 💔