I just feel so sad and fucking lonely all the time. I just moved so all of my friends are so far away and my parent and her boyfriend won’t drive me. I recently got 2 instruments, might be going to a concert, and I keep asking for more clothes and jewelry and things and I just feel so GREEDY. Like, I want these things but then it hits me that I keep asking and asking and all I give them in return is fucking scars and cuts all over my body from my own hands and then they have another thing to worry about. None of my friends talk to me much, my family doesn’t care or forces me into stuff I don’t want to do, and I just feel to lonely. My family even sometimes makes jokes about my self harm and then act surprised when cuts are on my body. Im so greedy and lonely and sad and fat and ugly and stupid and worthless and everyone just wishes I was dead already so they don’t have to hear about my bullshit. I’m sorry