I'm so depressed and everything feels completely against me. I have friends but they don't reach out. I feel lost and lonely. I'm more of an employee in my family. I'm treated like I'm useless and just a stranger. I just wish they would love me fully and show that they care. I'm left out and my siblings get everything they ask for. It's worse because they all know, even my friends, that I'm struggling but nobody acknowledges it. I'm just treated like I'm a sulky moody teen who spends all my time in my room. But I only do that because nobody wants me around. They don't ask about me, they never listen when I speak and I'm told all the time I talk so much. But if I talk so much then why am I so lonely. I feel wrong here, like I don't belong anywhere. I wish I could go back to when I felt happy, even if it was a bit fake. I wish someone would just take this pain away. I feel so anxious all the time I'm in a constant numb, sickly state. Theres no relief anymore. I'm just so tired