my school blocked every website that shows my comfort movie and kids helpline and lifeline are taking way too long to get to me. im exhausted. i wanna die but i dont. i mean i do, but i cant handle the idea of hurting my family. im literally in period 2 at school and im so scared im gonna have a panic attack. i can feel it building up :'( im so fucking scared and just tired. i want this feeling to go away. why cant life be good to me?