Do I want to die? Ask me again and I'll say no. I took a bottle off anxiety pills( big blue ones not mine) vommited them up was shaky and my teeth were chattering for 2 days. That was 2 days before thanks giving. I started cutting at 12 "stopped" on and off. Food is so lovely but I make myself throw up. For my mom it's a problem if I don't eat but a problem if I do. Hanging seems painful and shooting seems too hard. I have prescribed medication but it's low dosage because I'm 14 and maybe I'm not depressed enough ? If I tell the doctors what I really feel they'd send me away. I hate being this way, finding comfort on my own pain but it's so lovely. Watching the blood drip down my thighs and the scabs come in then the scars but when the fade oh how it hurts me . To see all the pain in one cut just "gone" so I do more, and more, and more. But when I'm 18 and moved out my body will finally be mine. It'll finally be mine. -angelita a.