i feel my life is so messed up right now. idk what im doing with my life, im taking decisions that i know are wrong but i still go with it. i feel so empty, i feel unloved and unseen, all my recent situationships has been absolutely shit, none of them really liked me, and the only few that did i fucked it up by talking w more people or doing stupid things. i feel so so dumb for letting my life get this bad, where i rely on people to feel alive, i need attention in a romantic way, i CRAVE and yearn for it. and im getting sleepy mid rant