I feel so fucked over by everything, I got forced into taking a college course that I didnt want to do and I had my options chosen for me at school, plus I had my grades ruined by Covid. And now I feel just as if I have been floating through the last 5 years massively unhappy and numb. I hate the people I live with who are supposedly my "family" they insult me daily and have made living at home a fucking nightmare, I hate them so fucking much, they hate the fact I am trans and actually happy with that decision, its the tiny bit of happiness that I can actually have and they dont support it and hate that I am happy because of it. I am thrown insults and physical abuse about it and told constantly that I have to dress like a boy and be manly, I just want to be myself and be safe being myself. I am also terrified of the possibilty of a government getting into power to make being trans illegal and that we are the enemy, (more than we already are). I am so scared and I feel so lost.