I wanna know if im seeking attention or if its real. Since i was 11, ive been feeling like im not needed. I've been so sad and down, fatigued, and exhausted. Some day i dont want to get out of bed. And this year ive had this constant weight on my chest, its like an ache. My heart aches and idk why . I feel like an attention seeker when i vent or try to get help whats wrong with me. I feel disgusting because sometimes i cant shower or cant even brush my hair. When i was 11 i went a month without brushing it and it was a giant knot. I feel hopeless.