i’ve been spiraling and while i do try to keep myself occupied and continue with my life, it really puts me back to square one and become a whole cycle. i’m so exhausted. i can’t afford therapy and there aren’t any free sessions offered near me. i wish i’m not in this state, it makes me want to give up when i don’t want to at all. i don’t have anyone i trust to vent to which makes it more miserable than it already is. it aches my heart so much.