Before I vent it out, I'd like to say this may contain contents that you are not comfortable with. I suffer from an addiction, an addiction towards adult media. I've been addicted to it for a while, 4 years I think.. I want to end it so badly. I've been trying my best, at least I hope I have been. It's frustrating and I feel hopeless in this Journey. I keep saying to myself I'll try to not watch it for more days than my previous record but I've barely reached the previous record. I feel so weak and alone in this journey. I just wish I never knew what adult media was. Few minutes before I fail I'm a completely different person who's like craving for it and once I fail I'm filled with guilt and frustration, I'm in total chaos and I feel like I don't know how to cope against this specific moment. I feel so done with this. I just hope I quit it once and forever one day.