I have a really big crush on this boy in my school but I’m a boy. I don’t really know what to do about it because I don’t know if he’s in a relationship or if I want a relationship but I feel like I have to do something to get it off my chest, so I am venting. I’m probably gay or something along those lines but I don't really know if it’s a real crush since I don’t know if I seek a relationship.

im really anxious and feeling crazy want to freak out

I'm talking to this guy (that I do know irl, I got to school w/him), and i have horrrrible communication and social skills, i was never taught and never really learned. i have been previously like socially isolated and homebound for two months (i was in IOP, having some mental issues and having been groomed online) so that definitely doesn't help. i really like him, but i dont talk much, yk? he told me he hasnt been in a relationship for just abt 2 years, just some causal things. we've been having some problems, bc of me (comm. & social skllz). i told him i was done, cus he's clearly done(never said it tho, js that he'd stop trying and that its up to me now), and he got pissed abt it cus he didnt mean to make it seem that way, and i asked him if he was done, he said he was but he didnt want to be. im clearly an issue, he's trying so hard and im js..not, cus i rlly do like him, but idk what to do, what to say. im stuck and itsd fkcn me over, no US (me n him)