im fucking tired,this 3 shit problems getting over me .Dysforia bc i am a trans guy,my addiction,and that im missing this one guy .i hate when pepole tell me something that makes me look or feel like a girl,like no shit i know that i am a biology a girl .Or when i masturbate until it hurts soo bad,or i think abt dirty things like having sex all the time or someone raping me or bullying me in sexual way,the worst?it makes me horny as fuck .and i can get horny anytime with no control,or when i have more romantic relationship .i scare pepole bc of my dirty mind .and the last one is this boy kuba who was whole world for me and even after 6 monts i still cant get over him no matter what.i fuck this life i dont wanna feel this pain anymore,i hate when sexual tthoughts of someone doing things to me makes me easily horny.bc of that i can thing even abt my teachers familly and close friends .Thats why i dont wanna makes new friends .Fuck this shithole .