hello. if you are reading this then know that im probably already dead. so im 17, my life is pure agony, i just like don't know to explain the feelings i feel this days. i had friends, very close ones. and we are talking like virtual and real ones. i had a girlfriend. i was living my best life. but this year, was total shit to me. not only i lost everyone, but also my girlfriend broke up with me. I don't know what to do right now. i don't know why i lost my friends in the first place. they just... disappeared. like i have "friends" left but I can't call them really friends, we just sometime say "hi" to each other and move one. and with girlfriend.. i can say i was just brainwashed this whole time. like i had suicide attempts, two exactly. but i wouldn't finished them. i always thinked that someone needs me. but now.. all i think that im just a piece of shit that nobody cares about. tomorrow i will attempt to kill myself. i wish you will have a good time and thanks for reading..