is it weird i want to go to a mental health hospital or ward. i mean ik it’s horrible place to be but i think im gonna kms soon and i don’t know if i can stop it for much longer. i want to die but im also scared that it will work and nobody will find me soon enough and nobody will care. maybe i just want to see who actually cares about me. Anyway i want to go because i feel like it’s the only place where i will be safe rn. and i could finally open up to like therapists or something because im not scared there gonna call me an ambulance because im already there. am i an attention seeking idiot? maybe. but surely i must not be making up my feeling because a mentally ok person wouldn’t want to kill themselves all day every day. FUCK LIFE WHY AM J THE ONLY PERSON I KNOW WHO FEELS LIKE THIS