So how do you hate someone you love? Because i oh so badly want to hate my mom but i just cant bring myself to knowing that what she did to me is because her mom did something terrible to her. but goddamn it im fucking tired. she never listens whether its concern for her i show, compassion, a joke while she is joking, any sort of thing where i try to bond she cant and then i cant. We just dont mesh well together i guess and i have to come to terms with it. I really want to hate her. But i love her. and no matter how many times she has and will yell obscene stuff at me, or hit me on the occasion and call me shit it wont change, whether it happened when i was 7 or whether it happens right now when im almost an adult. But god fucking dang it i really want to hate her. sorry.