I want to k!ll myself so badly, but a few days ago my friend said I should get help. I don’t want to get help because I don’t want my parents finding out or people to think I can’t handle myself, I think I can. But even though I don’t want to get help, I can’t bring myself to do it, it would make my friends and my partner sad. It’s confusing because sometimes I feel like I will never be their first choice. And every day I start to hurt myself more and more and I don’t know what to do. I also hate my family, never really see my friends anymore and I wish I was gone but I also don’t at the same time