I kinda dont know what I am doing anymore. Like... I don't really see a reason not to kms. I dont have any friends. No love. No plans for the future. No dreams or anything I actually want. I dont care about having a nice car, living on my own, or any of that. I hate the way I look and sound. I don't even have the motivation to do anything. I'm kinda just... here. The only thing I really do is sing sometimes. Not because I'm good at it or anything. Mostly so I don't forget what my own voice sounds like or forget how to speak. Like I can actually go a week or more without saying a single word. I feel like im just taking up space. Like someone else could have had this life, and actually had done something with it. Maybe I just got unlucky. Maybe thats all it is. Natural selection, I guess.