I’m so tired. I’m tired of being anxious about everything all of time. About my weight, my health, what people think of me, whether or not im gonna die that day, anything I could worry about I do. I just want freedom. I’m even scared about not being scared. What is my life without anxiety. Who am I without it? I’m nothing. Just a big useless lump. Everyone else has it so much worse than me, why am I complaining on the internet? No one loves me. They won’t say it to my face, but I can feel it. They all think im crazy annoying and ugly. I’m tired. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I just want to be normal. Why couldn’t I be born normal? I fucking hate myself and everyone and everything. My life is miserable. And I’ve never been sexually or physically assaulted, I’ve never been groomed, im not a child of an illegal drug user and im not one myself, im just some whiny bitch. I’m not a good person. I try so hard but everyone always leaves me. What point does my life have?