When I come into school, I always feel so self-conscious about my body and the way I look, I feel too big, I feel like I take up too much space, I'm always trying to cover up my body and wear long and baggy clothes, so no one sees what's I actually look like underneath, like yes, I have hyperpigmentation, I have stretch marks I have unusually large breasts and I have a stomach, but I never wanted to be born that way, I wanted to be perfect like all of those pretty girls you see on TikTok, the ones with the perfect bodies and perfect face, perfect life and perfect everything, truth is, I'm probably never going to be like that, I can't get surgery for it yet, I can't modify my own body with surgical tools which I wish I could. Sometimes I feel so bad about my body to the point where I start harming myself, my wrists have been getting skinnier from blood loss, my thighs/legs are getting weaker, my scars make me feel hideous, stretch marks, sh scars, etc.