I feel dead. Like if I’m here but I’m not exactly here. I also just feel so unmotivated I wanna kill my self and I know that I’m gonna kill myself because I don’t want a future. But people keep telling me that’s not normal. I think I do want a future sometimes but I give up constantly, because things are so hard. I’m only in high school damnit and I don’t want college, I don’t want anything involving adulthood I just wanna kill myself. Why is that such a big deal to everyone, I don’t wanna be on meds I wanna die, and I’m not scared or at least I don’t think I am because my mind is so set on it. I. Will. Kill. Myself.
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