Idk exactly when I started self-harming, maybe 12 or 13, I don't remember very well. Ik that I haven't been able to stop since then, and now I'm 19 and I'm still doing it. I feel stupid, I mean, I don't think I do it because I have a difficult life or stuff (I do have a difficult life, but I don't think that justifies my actions) or that I do it to channel some kind of pain. I just think I like it, that I started doing it out of curiosity, and over time I've come to enjoy other kinds of injuries. I feel disgusting because of it. I have all kinds of scars, and I know I'll never have the chance of someone wanting to sleep with me, but the idea that if I did have the chance, that person would probably be disgusted by my scars makes me sad.
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