Bro, I actually feel so fucking bad about myself, like I always feel like I'm such a rude person because of the people I live with and the people I'm friends with, a few of my friends at school are rude to some people and I try to be the best I can but sometime sit honestly rubs off on me and that just makes me feel like a completely different person. even when I go home, I HATE the people I live with. sometimes there's fighting, sometimes there's criticism sometimes there might even be physical fighting but that's rare. there's this really nice teacher I had in grade 7, I'm not going to name her for privacy reasons and she was my music teacher, see, I really liked music and I still do and I wanted to be nice to this teacher, I wanted to do the tasks in class, have fun with everyone, but in this school year, my class always used to judge me and they still kind of do which I hate, I wanted to be nice to this teacher so bad but my friends attitude rubbed off on me.