Rant #10419

I went into a religious psychosis while crashing out and the last time I've genuinely prayed I was 6 years old. I think this is the lowest I've hit myself. Now that I calmed down, I could only stare at the Bible in my bedside table. I'm trying to reconnect with the Lord since it helped me a little during my breakdown, I know it's mostly not gonna get answered but I'm desperate in trying to get better.