I'm autistic and I have a big relationship problem with my mom I love her but she doesn't I'm under 18 and i can't do much but she blames me everytime I do something it's never enough all I am to her is something to flex "my son is a good artist" and all I am to her in my opinion is not a human but a something to flex and when I have meltdowns and such It always fully my fault and i don't know what to do

I have a really big crush on this boy in my school but I’m a boy. I don’t really know what to do about it because I don’t know if he’s in a relationship or if I want a relationship but I feel like I have to do something to get it off my chest, so I am venting. I’m probably gay or something along those lines but I don't really know if it’s a real crush since I don’t know if I seek a relationship.

im really anxious and feeling crazy want to freak out