I can't, I just can't man. It feels like nothing is working out, and I'm just burdening others with my negativity. It feels like shit builds up, and then I keep talking about it, and that makes it worse! But then not talking about it does the same fucking thing! Mentally I'm fucked, any instance of having a decent relationship with a parental figure is now fucked, I have a medical condition that's not being diagnosed correctly and is now close to impossible to live with, I hate the place I live in, it's so miserable, I have no IRL friends bc they're either up north or in different countries, my nervous system is starting to end itself and it keeps giving me sensory overload deluxe, and on top of that work is getting difficult now too. Why, why why why is it like this? And because I'm feeling shitty like this, I'm now jealous that my partner has IRL friends they hang out with and its honestly tearing me up inside. All of it, all of it is so much. How do I