I really miss my ex. Idk why. I tried leaving him when our relationship started bcuz I was catfishing him. I never told him the truth. I wanted to but I just couldn't bcuz I thought he might leave me. And I couldn't leave him too bcuz he was genuinely so sweet. He was literally the sweetest guy I've ever met but suddenly he changed. Idk what happened. He started to make excuses not to talk with me. I used to wait for him to text me but he would text me at night and he would say "I'm sorry I'm tired I gotta sleep". And yeah it happened for weeks. And then I finally left him. I blocked him everywhere. I wish I could tell him the truth. I am also a bad person here. I lied about my name, age, face and other things. I feel so guilty. I shouldn't have done that. I started catfishing since I was 9 bcuz idk. I used to get groomed online all the time. And yeah that's how I started liking older guys and started to fake everything