Sometimes I feel like I wanna kill myself. Obviously I’d never do it but I just lost my brother and I think of how my mom would feel losing two children. I don’t even have a valid reason to be upset. My life is fine objectively. I just have too much going on in my brain. I think there’s something fundamentally wrong with me instead. Even with my girlfriend I feel like I don’t know how to love her properly. I’m too lazy to do anything anyways.