I feel like all anybody sees is my weight. I cant do things normal people would be able to do shamelessly, just because Im heavier than my friends. I have to hide my chronic illnesses and act like I'm functioning fine so it doesn't look like I'm huge and cant move good. I cant eat In front of my friends. my closest friend of a decade, without fail, during every single meal we share together, sparks a baffled conversation about how fast I eat, and how much more I eat than her. I cant swim with my friends, I feel like I need to cover up more. it just controls so much of my social life, I'm performing for an audience of people who's worst nightmare is looking like me.