i have adhd and depression. i've been diagnosed for a while now and im on medication, but it feels like no matter how "good" my life is on paper, i still feel horribly unfulfilled. I have so many hobbies ive picked up over the years. drawing. i have two guitars and i play neither of them. i played the violin for years now i barely touch it. Crochet. traditional art. mountains of books. manga. tv shows i started but never finished. an electric keyboard i don't know how to play. i'm horribly spoiled and privileged in life but i spend my time sleeping or scrolling on my phone. trying to do anything else fills me with a restless anxiety. i am very sensitive to heat so i can't even play outside. or maybe i can and my executive dysfunction is just so bad. i feel like im wasting my youth, ive already wasted 100s of hours to scrolling on instagram. i feel hopeless. i'm surrounded by resources but everything makes me miserable. i feel like a joke. millions of people would kill to have my life.