Every single day I wake up and the first thing on my mind is my body and weight, I always tell myself "today ill not eat anything" if I succeed ill most definitely binge tomorrow but if I don't succeed I binge that day because well I've already failed, its a never ending cycle, I feel disgusted and regretful all the time. I try to ask my mom for help to send me to a dietician or something but she just laughs it off and says I don't need it, I don't think ill ever be normal