I'm so lonely. I live in my car. I'm looking for a job but it's difficult. I go to a place 5 days a week for a free lunch. The people there are mostly alcoholics and drug addicts whose mentality is so base and of low character that not only can I not have a decent conversation with them, but I can't even listen to them. I am 68 years old so I have virtually nothing in common with anyone I meet. I don't drink alcohol nor do I take drugs. I'm basically invisible Crackwhores have family. I have Noone. I would get a dog but I don't want subject a dog to my current condition. That would cruel and irresponsible. I don't think I have the capacity for love or even meaningful friendship. All I ever wanted put of life was to love someone unconditionally and to loved the same way. I am an utter failure. I have no real interest in anything. Everything and virtually every irritates me and disappoints me. Everytime I invest myself into anyone, I am let down. I don't don't know what to do.