All of my friends drain my energy, I try to make new ones and they end up leaving quickly saying I'm weird because I can't comfort them even though I can't even comfort myself, I can't even cry anymore I don't remember what happened a few hours ago, I don't know when the last time I ate or drank water is. I've been trying to get better and treat myself better but I just keep finding worse and worse people who drag me in. Getting used as a person who will 'always be there no matter what' after he sent me things so disgusting I don't even wanna state them but he kept calling me and playing games with me unlike all my other friends that I have, and still do. Him and the other disgusting people are gone now but right now, while everyone is ignoring me I miss that annoying fucker even if it felt like I was on a damn leash. I can't even fit all of it in this fuck as box I hate it so much