thank you to your reply on the affects of SA vs rape, I know all trauma has the chance of impacting a brain the same way but I was curious if there was any concrete evidence or generally accepted belief that a violent or humiliating SA or prolonged grooming or acts of incest USUALLY impacts a victim at the same level as rape, because to me it still feels awful and i have dreams and memories of being raped that never happened and it feels so visceral, and because one was also painful and has caused lasting internal pain and scarring idk im sorry i know this is such a stupid specific issue i just have constant dreams of being raped since i was 12 and they all feel so real and i wake up either with my body responding to it or realize i have actually wet the bed, and i just hate myself so much and it all just feels so unwarranted like i am just being a big crybaby. esp because apparently i dont have PTSD or CPTSD and therapists just get awkward when i bring it up :( animalsinmyhead