I let my mom know how bad its getting...I told her directly how I felt and what I've been feeling...I'm starting to feel rejected from everything in my life...like im useless in everything...I've been looking at places to study...its all so expensive...I really don't want to be a more of a financial burden then I already am...I've tried looking for work sending my stuff in...but here there is no work...I hate it I want to help but I don't know how to do it or where to begin...I feel like people in my life don't like me...or think im useless...