i feel so gross all the time im so fucking disgusting. why do i even do this anymore. i do anything remotely intimate and i feel so disgusted with myself and guilty afterwards i hate it i hate myself. i hate my fucking body. i just hate it all. its so stupid. i hate this. i think im hypersexual or have some sort of addiction to sexual things but i dont fucking know anymkre i feel so gross i AM so gross. please someone just kill me please.