I just dont see how I'm supposed to find modding groups or people to work with. When you reach a certain age, talking to people online feels weird (unless its friends, but I don't have those). People say there's groups, but all they are is existing ones and life's taught me that you can't assimilate into that without being a nuisance. Inclusivity doesn't work, exclusivity only works if it already was fine and eventually stops... "Go join clubs", which either don't work, I become the problem or I get rejected anyway. Why bother? You already have to dance around people all the fucking time. I should be happy others are happy... No, I've had to be miserable for long enough, deal with myself and frankly if I've historically been forced to deal with very erratic and tetchy bullshit, I think I'm overdue for some positive karma my way. And yet, my words only can go here, because I have nowhere else and no one cares. Because I'm worthless.