its been a while since the day u choose to left me for another girl, some days i felt like is it because im being too much to be loved, is it because i ddnt try harder to understand and love u, or is it because how i look, or because i ddnt have anything that can make u stay, but at the end i ddnt have the answer... healing phase isnt linear, some days i broke down crying like hell some days i felt im the happiest girl ever... but the truth when the relapse hit me... every single day im trying my best to stay alive, to fight with all of the thaughts.. and till now im still trying.. maybe right now you already have your new life, new girl and be the best version of yourself, im hoping that you will always stay healthy and happy even without me.