Ive felt like a bad person most of my life, I cant feel anything anymore all I feel is an empty void in my heart. If Im better from who I was then why do I still feel this way? Why instead of feeling something like before im like a robot devoidless of emotions. I wish I felt something I wish I didnt have despise for people and I wish id never met anyone at all, Everything I say and do hurts the people around me and even if I take accountability for it I end up feeling nothing, Why? If I got better then why do I feel like all of my humanity has been stolen and left with nothing? I put up this act of a happy person when underneath I have utter demise and despise for others, Why? Why am I like this? Why Cant I feel anything? Why does the past still haunt me? Why cant I move on? I want to feel something, And I can't even do that without bringing even the quietest sense of despair to myself.