The internal feeling of suppression just aches my own heart alot. It's kinda hard to explain everything all at once. And it was all destroyed by memories that genuinely pierce my skin and flesh to the point of oblivion. I'm gonna get straight into the point, it all started on an unknown platform made by Nintendo themselves called Shared Content, and at the time there was a disturbing trend of disgusting pedophiles asking people to friend them to have access to their Minecraft worlds which I unfortunately was chosen by one of them. After witnessing some disgusting things in said chatroom, I was groomed for more than 2+ years and I would just keep it to myself in secrecy, more days would pass and now here I am in pure misanthropy for the earth, I NEVER tell my parents since I know they would just take everything away for my "safety" the amount of skin I cutted within my own body is innumerable. Idk dude but everything just hurts and I'm just spiralling to the point of no return.