I feel like I want to die, I know it's supposed to be just wanting the pain to end, but I want EVERYTHING to end. Happiness, sadness, you name it. It's like when I'm upset and having the 14th break down this week I want to die, and when I'm out finally being happy out of the rarest of times, I hear this voice inside telling me to kms because I'm being too loud or I am acting cringe, or I get shut down. When I finally get something that comforts me I get them taken away. I know "I'm too young to be upset and have nothing to cry about" but I was fucking physically abused by a close friend of mine in 4th grade and now that I'm 12 I was recently cheated on by my gf with my 4 year long best friend, now I don't want to socialize again but my parents tell me I need to make new friends when EVERY friend I've had has done me wrong physically and mentally. Sorry for wasting yalls time, just needed to know if anyone feels the same...