Why does it seem like people like me but then when they're not forced to share the same space with me they don't talk to me at all. NOBODY makes an effort to interact with me this summer vacation or maybe they do and I push them away because of I don't know. The only person I talk to consistently is my best friend which is one of the few lights in my life I vented to him yesterday about wanting to kill myself because I never told anyone and I wanted to get it out my chest and I don't really know how he reacted I mean we were joking around a bit and also serious talk but I don't know what his opinion is. I don't know if he really cares for me or just I don't know. My mom cares for me but I don't want to talk to her I don't know why. I never liked talking to my mom. My sister is a bitch well not really but meh. I don't really care about people I don't know why I'm saying this. Or maybe I do but I say I don't as cope. I just wanna kms