I am just so sick and fucking tired. Constantly I’m misunderstood, and not just by acquaintances or colleagues. I can’t even confide in my boyfriend without him just getting mad at me and making me feel stupid for how I feel. No matter how many times I just try and say how I feel he doesn’t hear it. He doesn’t care. He just gets mad and tells me I’m upset over nothing and then gives me reason after reason why how me feeling like however I feel is wrong. And that I’m stupid for feeling that way. I’m so sick of not being heard. I’m so sick of fighting for a relationship with someone who if I’m really being honest with myself just uses me. If I said the full situation here, just reading it back I would loose it. Because when you look at the facts he rlly doesn’t love me. But I love him so much. I don’t know what to do. I hate him but I love him. And I don’t think I could ever feel like this about someone again if I tried. But I’m miserable. I don’t know what to do.